ARE ALL GUYS BOOB GUYS???

HELLO I B T C!!!!!

I've always been a small chested girl. When I was in middle school I would get teased all the time by boys that I liked. They would say "Erin you're so flat you make the walls jealous!!" "Erin your chest is flatter than your back" Awesome!! My mother on the other hand was very large chested. I always tell people that I inherited my fathers chest. It makes for a good laugh and I'm great at self deprecation!

So what's my point? I guess I became aware of men and their fascination with breasts in a cruel way. Now I'm an adult and not much has changed. Men are the same. So I'm absolutely convinced that EVERY GUY IS A BOOB GUY!! If a guy tells you differently he is lying! I mean seriously, when a girl walks in a room and she has a big chest every guy turns around to look at her. On there hand, if you're a girl that's small chested FORGET ABOUT IT!!!

I've had guys tell me "Oh I'm a total butt guy!" I don't believe it for a second. You don't see thousands possibly millions of women in the U.S. getting boob jobs because the world is filled with "Butt guys". Women get boob jobs because guys like them and we as women are inundated with the thought that if you're not a 34 C or bigger than you're just not good enough.

And another thing, you never hear men say they like small boobs. Funny thing is, I actually worked with one guy back in St. Louis and he said that he liked small boobs and of course the girl he is dating is probably the biggest chested girl I ever seen! HOW DOES THAT HAPPEN?


I'm not going to lie!

Am I self conscious of my boobs now? SOMETIMES YES! (I actually apologized to a guy because they were small.)

Do I wish they were bigger from time to time? SOMETIMES YES!

Do I sometimes judge girls with HUGE possibly (what I would say) GINORMOUS boobs? Again...SOMETIMES YES!

And am I a little jealous? One more time... SOMETIMES YES!


Moral of the story is that guys are all BOOB GUYS...and I'm not sure that you can can convince me otherwise. If you can I welcome your response!

I'M GOING TO PARIS!!!!!

So I've been talking about going to Paris for Christmas. It's Official!!! I bought my ticket on Friday night!! I am super excited and scared at the same time. I'm going all by myself!!! Yikes!

Mathew this morning asked me what I wanted to find while I was there. He said, "Are you looking for a french boyfriend?" I said, "Ahhh NO!" Really, what do I want to find while I'm there? I want to eat cheese, bread and wine and some little cafe. I want to see the Eiffel Tower, the artwork at The Louve. Check out the D-day beaches...take a day and go to London!! I want to find some little artist that has some great artwork!(that's cheap) I want to go shopping in the fashion capitol. I want to bring home a ton of cool stuff that no one has!!

It'll be weird I'm sure. Not being able to speak the language. I may become mute over that week. I'm sure there will plenty of people that do speak English so I may be OK.

I'm just excited to finally do some serious traveling. Go to a place that I've always wanted to experience. There is so much history there. It's funny how I was never interested in history till my mid 20's. Now I found it fascinating. If only I had liked it in college...I would've had some better grades!

Well wish me luck. If you think of anything that I should or do...let me know!! I'm so open for ideas!

GETTING MYSELF OUT THERE AGAIN!

So recently I decided that it might be OK for me to start dating again. I've gone a few dates. All of them have been fine...No horror stories thus far. Which is good right?

You've probably heard me talk on the air how I also decided to join MATCH.COM. While I'm still pretty new to the dating online thing, it's proved to be very interesting. I'm still so new to the area as well. One thing I've talked about in the past is when you're an adult how do you meet people to date...especially living in a new city? It's tough. And I thought to myself..."you may never find someone unless you step outside your comfort zone." So I have.

Have I found any love connections?? Too early to say. I'm still a newbie to this whole thing. I want to take things slow...one day at a time and one date a time!! I want to make sure I'm getting into a relationship because I want to be with this person not because I need a time filler. I don't want that. Everyone tells me "Erin...take your time...don't rush into anything!" I agree!! I totally agree.

I want to date and see what the world has to offer. Casually date. When I say casually date...that doesn't mean I want casual bowling!! If you know what I'm saying??? That's not for me.

My friend's hair stylist had a great saying...she said "If you're not ready to give up your every Friday and Saturday night to be and hang out with your guy...then you're not ready to date someone seriously." I thought that was an interesting perspective. Is that true??

And is it wrong to just date? My friend told me it's like trying on shoes. You're just trying to see which ones are a good fit!

So I head off in the dating world...any good words of wisdom? What should I prepare myself for? Keep in mind, I don't have a lot of dating experience...so A lot of this is new to me.
Thanks

DO GUYS EVER GET HEARTBROKEN?

I often hear of girls who've had their hearts broken. Mine has been somewhat recent. Even though I do my best to move on it's still hard at times. I fear that it will happen again. That the feelings I have for someone will grow more and more over time and they in turn will just become more and more detached and bored.

It seems in my expercience, that when a couple breaks up that the girl is devasteated. Guys are moving on. If they have any feelings they either hide it because they don't want to look weak or go off and do crazy stuff, like shack up with girls, dating, going out with the boys and act like fools.

Now I will say, I have a very small amount of dating experience. I was a late bloomer for sure. In the very few experiences I've had I feel that the men were went along with their lives just fine. Never once did they try to get back together. Say that they wish things were different or that we were still together. I once got somewhat of an apology from the ex husband. He sent a text saying he was sorry for being a bad husband.

I know I asked Sean if he was ever heartbroken. Did a girl ever break his heart? His answer..."well it broke my heart when you told me you weren't able to go on that trip to Hawaii." WHAT? REALLY? THAT'S IT??? No offense...but I don't consider that to be heartbroken. I call that dissappointed and that's about it! I thought it was sad in a way...it made me think that he never felt a real connection with someone, or maybe he was good at protecting himself and would disconnect with a girl before they could do it to him. I'm not sure why there are some guys that break up with every girl they are with. Do they just REALLY know what they want or are they not sure at all? Do they just not want to be the ones that get broken up with?

I talked with a guy the other day and he said that if a girl were to break up with him he would just say "Oh well I'll just go and get with something else." I thought that it was so emotionless. Girls always try to figure out what happended and why we didn't work. Some of us dicesct more than others.

So do guys ever REALLY get heartbroken? (trips to Hawaii don't count)I'm just feeling that guys want to erase any memory or feeling? Shed a little light.

DOES EVERYTHING REALLY HAPPEN FOR A REASON???

You know the saying "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON"? Do you actually believe that? I know girls we sometimes dwell on stuff. I am VERY guilty of this. I worry over too much. I over analyze. I think about what could I have done differently. I especially analyze this stuff when it's getting towards that time of the month...I know TMI!!

The breakup with Sean I still take a lot personally. I sometimes wonder what is the reason that I'm here in Milwaukee? Is it just to further my career? Will I find personal happiness while I'm here? Is there a purpose that he (Sean) was put into my life in the first place?

When I met Sean I was getting divorce. We dated for just a few months and he decided to move back to Texas to be near his ailing brother. I thought for sure that he would dump me then and there. (GUYS NEVER ARE INTO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS) But he didn't and we continued to date. We talked about my career and how I move around sometimes and what business he could start that would allow him to do so. Then conversations turned to me moving somewhere in Texas to be near him.

Well I had an opportunity to get a job at my old station in Austin!! How perfect!! It was doing mornings..which is what I wanted to do. It was in Austin...the same city as Sean! PERFECT!! I thought I had the gig...my boss thought I had the gig! The boss in Austin let me think I might get the gig. And then...my boss tells me that some other girl got the job. Of course, she's blond with big boobs..not sure how that translates to radio but whatever!!! I was disappointed for sure. But I also thought that it was OK because I think that eventually I would have gotten bored with that job because it wasn't challenging.

Then comes this job in Milwaukee. I have to say all of it happened so fast. And the saying when it rains it pours is true. At the same time this job came up, so did a job in Dallas. I thought "Wow this is AWESOME!!! Sean is moving to Dallas shortly maybe we can be in the same city again." Well, the job in Dallas didn't give me much to go on. They were thinking of making changes but they weren't sure yet on when or who or what. The job at KTI was ready tomorrow. In fact, if I got the job they wanted me to move in a couple of weeks. Well, Dallas wasn't ready. Milwaukee was ready and it was a great opportunity. I had to take it. Funny thing is, I cried when I got the job. I was scared for so many reasons. Will I do well at my new job, will I get friends, and what will happen to my relationship?

So, about a month after I moved here, Sean broke up with me. It hurt and somehow I knew it was coming. Not necessarily by his actions or things he said...I just knew. I knew he would check out. He had decided that he needed to change careers. And selling airplanes was more to him than I could be.

So, why was I up for 2 different jobs in the same city as him? Was it some cruel joke that life or GOD played on me? Seriously, what was the point? What is the reason that things just never worked in our favor? If things aren't supposed to work out...why do they happen in the first place?