The other day I had a thought. Coincidentally I had it the other morning while I was taking a tinkle. Ya I know, too much information, but I'm open and that's where I was. I sat there thinking about how I turn 33 this week and I remember why there's a significance about my birthday this year.
Five years ago when I just started dating Mr. Dallas (Wow that was about 5 years ago...crazy)I remember we were having one of those early on in dating getting to know each other conversations. Unlike a LOT of men I meet, Mr. Dallas was very good at asking questions. Out of the blue he asked me a semi interview question. "Erin, where do you see yourself in 5 years?"
Kind of surprised I said, "What do you mean?" He then said, "well do you see yourself married or single? Do you have kids? Do you see yourself with a house on the lake?" I didn't know how to respond.
I said, "Well I'll be 33 in 5 years. Honestly I don't know. I can see myself married but then again I can see myself single. Really, I haven't put much thought into it. I kind of just take life as it comes."
Well 5 years later is NOW! And as I sat there thinking of that 5 year mark I thought, Where am I and what have I accomplished 5 years later?
We know one thing is certain...I AM SINGLE! So, no surprise there. I have moved on to bigger opportunities career wise. Although my back account is lacking significantly. I've gained some great friends along the way. I still have no debt. That's good. I have my health still.
One thing is, and maybe I'm just being hard on myself and incredibly self critical, but I feel like I haven't done as much as I'd hoped. Granted, I never really thought about it, but I guess you just think that things will be so much better in 5 years.
Deep down I would've loved to be in a relationship in that amount of time. But I'm not and not really even close. I wasn't sure about the kids and I'm still not sure. I figure it depends on who I marry and what WE decide vs. what I decide.
I wish I would have my place that I own or co-own. That's not the case. I also would've thought I'd make more money in 5 years and have a little nest egg so to speak. Again, not the case.
One thing I will say is in that 5 years I've gone on 3 vacations in Europe by myself. France, Italy, and England. Paid for by myself. That is something that I didn't picture myself doing, but I'm glad I did.
So where do I see myself in the next 5 years? Let's not discuss my age then. But I do hope that in the next 5 years I meet someone that loves me unconditionally. I hope that I am even further along in my career with a TV show or maybe even an author. God knows I've had some interesting stories along the way. I hope that I have a great place to live that I can say is MINE or OURS!
I hope and pray. In fact, I'm going to visualize it.