So, since the blowing up of WKTI and my job I've decided I have too much time on my hands. I spend a lot of my time these days thinking, analyzing, and over analyzing. I also have decided that I need to get some hobbies, a boyfriend, a gay man friend, or a F#&K buddy. Ok, I'm kidding on the last one...kind of.
But I really need to find at least one of those because I'm starting to have conversations with my dog. I tell her that I need to get dressed, I ask her what I should wear. I even ask her where she thinks we're going to live next. I tell her that I'm lucky to have her and that's she makes me happy. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!! I even spoon my dog. Yeah, you heard me. I lay on the couch wrapped in a blanket spooning my dog. To be perfectly honest with you, I even sleep in bed with Sexie under the covers. She usually gets out and sleeps on top or on the couch but, I fall asleep with her there.
Lately, I spend a lot of time thinking. Almost worrying about what is next for me. Every time I look on the Internet or watch the news I hear of more people in my industry that are out of work. Heck, people in any industry are losing their jobs and looking for gigs. I've even contemplated going to...say...Brazil, living there for say 5 or 6 months and learn fluent Spanish. I would only do that if I could do it inexpensively and have a semi-buddy to show me around and help me.
I also have been thinking about relationships that I've been in and ones I've developed while here in Milwaukee. I think about my crappy track record with guys. I wonder if in the next place I live will it be better. Will I have an easy time meeting people and friends? Will the next place I live I even have time to do anything other than work? Actually, maybe that wouldn't be so bad.
I've been thinking about how with some people, they always seem to be in a relationship. Even if it's time filler person. Some people are never alone. Girls...and GUYS are guilty of it. Since my breakup with a certain someone earlier this year, my longest relationship has been about a month...maybe 2. While that person has somewhat dated the same person since say...summer. Then I compare them to other people I've been with dated or married and you know what? They're very similar. Ever since the end of us, they've been hooked up pretty consistently. UNBELIEVABLE!
See, this is what I'm talking about. I think way too much. I think about everything all day long. When I'm not awake thinking, I'm thinking in my sleep. I've had dreams about all of my recent ex's with in the last two weeks. Most of it is innocent. (Keep your head out of there) I just have them appear in my dreams. It's strange.
Is there a pill I can take to stop thinking? OR a pill to make it so I stop worrying? Oh that would be great. A life without a care...maybe I should move to an island and live in a hut! Nah!...I like electrical outlets.