As you may know I'm a pretty sensitive person. I wear my heart on my sleeve and in the past I've been burned. Some people can just shrug it off but, for some reason I take things to heart more. Somewhat recently I was burned. If you read my blogs I'm sure you know what I'm talking about.
Well recently, I got an apology from a person who has hurt me in the past. He told me that basically he was a jerk to me. He also still wants to be friends. I accepted the apology. I have never hated him, although, I was pissed and extremely hurt. I told him that I did still want to be friends but I was afraid of him hurting me again.
Now, given this latest development I have talked to him and we've even hung out a bit. Here's the thing though, do I give them a clean bill and be absolutely forgiving? Forgetting all past issues, or do I tread with caution? Or should I be like my typical self, be skeptical and cynical that they'll be better this time?
I personally want to be absolutely forgiving and forget the past. I truly think they're not a bad person. I do hope that they were 100% honest when they said they have not been themselves lately and were sorry.
If I could tell this person something without sounding like an idiot and be all sappy, I would first say, you know you've hurt me so please don't do it again. You know I'm sensitive, so please don't take advantage of that. And you know that I'm a caring person, so please don't advantage of that either. I'll make a new saying WWET...WHAT WOULD ERIN THINK?
So what happens now? Right now, I've decided to let go of the anger and hurt. I will give them another chance to be in my life. I will proceed with caution and I will forgive.