I feel like I'm on the TV show "The Bachelor". As we all know I've gone on some dates. At the moment, I'm not juggling a bunch of guys. Things have died down a bit. There's a person that I've somewhat started seeing. Totally nothing serious. We've gone out. Although no official dates. So the contestant thing??? As I've dated multiple people at a time, this guy is doing the same. Problem is, he tells me about it. The bigger problem is he calls us "CONTESTANTS"!!!! Yeah you read it right!!!
At first I thought it was kind of funny. Then I was slightly offended. I told him it kind of made me uncomfortable to be a contestant and he said "I know, I didn't really want it to come out like that." But here's the thing...he still calls us that. Now I'm not sure if it's a big joke now or what...and he thinks it's funny, but there's a part of me that feels a little hurt by that comment. Like I'm a piece of meat and not a real person.
This guy by the way, has been up front from the beginning....for the most part. I'm sure there are things that he is not forthcoming with. With that said, I've known from the start that he's "dating" other girls. Whatever dating is for this guy. This is also the same guy that I wrote about being a bad boy. FYI.
I'm doing my best at playing it cool. Not being affected and non-needy but at the same time, I'm a girl who at the end of the day wants to have a guy that loves hanging around me. Is excited to see me and can't wait to see me again.
I feel over the past 2 years since my divorce I've learned a few things. One thing I learned is that I'm not a door mat. I always felt 2nd best when it came to my husband and his job. I know he was busy but he never made me feel as if I was the one he looked forward seeing at the end of his day. I think he was in love with his palm pilot! Sean(the last boyfriend) was actually very kind to me. Our biggest downfall was the fact he had an ailing brother and he was priority number 1 and after his passing Sean was never the same.
Sorry I've gone off on a tangent there....
Now I know that people date multiple people. I'm not an idiot. And the guys I've gone on dates with I've come up with nicknames for...but contestants??? Is it funny or am I being completely disrespected to my face? Granted, I'm PMS'ing like a mother but still....I'm a somewhat sensitive flower that needs a little Time...Care...and Attention.
LBS...Let's be serious here...If I'm going to be on "The Bachelor" can a girl at least get a rose at the end of the night!!! GAWD!
I know to take things slow and see how things go but at what point does taking one's time become I cop out and it becomes a classic case of "He's Just Not That Into You!"?
At what point are you playing it cool or just plain playing a fool?