Well since Sean broke up with me last Thursday, I'm doing a little better. I was down in the dumps for a good 5 days. I hardly ate, I just never had an appetite, I just never wanted to do anything. I just kept thinking about what I did wrong, "What's wrong with me?", "What happens next?".
I do feel better. My appetite is not completely back but it may take a second.
The funny thing, Sean and I still talk almost everyday. It's for most part good conversations. He'll ask me how my day is and how the show went, what am I doing that evening. I'm a little confused by all of it. I don't necessarily think that because we are talking means we'll get back together but at the same, this happend before. When his brother was very sick he broke it off. He wanted to spend as much time with his brother and would not come to see me. He I think felt torn, and the easiest thing for him to do was break it off. So is this the same? or is he still talking to me because he feels guilty? Does he care? Is he not completely ready for to cut things off? I'm probably over thinking it!
Men are very hard to figure out. They hide feelings. Maybe it's me. Maybe I'm just a little too open.