Tuesday, January 12, 2010
GOD WORKS IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS
Over the weekend, I spent a lot of time at home. Thinking, cleaning, and reading. I bought the new Joel Osteen Book while attending church one Sunday. I was raised in a very conservative Christian home as a child and even though I sometimes cuss like a sailor and bad poor choices, I still have my belief system.
I believe that God is there. I believe that God make things happen for you when all looks dark. He can make things happen that you couldn't imagine even to be possible. God works in mysterious ways.
Although I'm not a perfect Christian, or even a good one depending on who you talk to, I've always believed deep down in my heart that He was there. Even when the negative voice in me wants to get down in the dumps and think otherwise, I truly believe that things HAVE TO work out.
I can't tell you how many times God has made things work out for me in my life. Most of the times have been in my career.
It all goes back to when I was 19 and working for KUPL in Portland. I had a full time job with benefits. It wasn't my dream job but it was a great start at 19/20 years old.
I was a skinny, sassy little thing, that was pretty naive to a lot of things. One day at work my boss came up behind me and smacked my ass! He smacked it so hard that I know if I would have looked at it, I would've had a hand print on my butt.
I had just started dating my ex husband at the time. I told him the story and he insisted on me telling my other boss. As much as I was afraid to, I did.
Now, during this time I decided that I wanted to be full time on air. So I started looking around. Within a couple weeks I was told by my management that my position was being eliminated. I was crushed. I lived in my own apartment which I could not afford without my roommate. Who also just decided to leave me high and dry and move out all her stuff to live with her boyfriend.
When all seemed hopeless I got a call about a job In Eugene, OR! I was hired! I paid my last months rent, gave my 30 days, and I moved. God had a hand
Now flash forward past years of wondering about my career path and marriage issues. Let's talk about after my divorce. I was working in St. Louis for The Bull. I made hardly any money. I think they low balled me because my husband and I got hired at the same time and they gave him all them money. I was making less than 30K.
I decided that if I wanted to be the radio personality that I wanted to be and have my personality really shine I needed to do mornings. I wanted to leave anyway because my ex-husband became my boss after the divorce and I didn't need that.
Somehow Mathew Blades heard of me and wanted to get me to go for his old job in Denver. I told him I wanted to do mornings as my next stop. He said he was actually looking for a co-host for his new job. So I apply, interview, and I get the job. All in time before my company eliminates my day part, so they can voice track it. Again, God had a hand.
So now it's November 2008. The management at the station decides to "Blow up" the station and fire everyone. I was lucky to have a contract that was no-cut. So they couldn't fire me unless I did something stupid.
I started looking for a new job with months and months of not having much luck. I decided to write down all the things I wanted if I could hand pick where I worked. The 1st place I emailed was KILT in Houston...and well...it worked out. I don't make the money I did in Milwaukee but, sometimes you need to take a step back before you can move forward. Again, God had a hand.
I tell you these stories because deep down I know that God has a way of making things work out. He's showed it time and time again in my career. The only place I haven't felt like God has helped out a lot is in the LOVE department.
With heartbreak after heartbreak, I wonder when God is ever going to show a little mercy for me in that area.
I know I can be a hard one to handle but, I have a lot to offer and give. I'm a loyal, committed, honest, funny, caring, loving, affectionate, and REAL person. I don't lie, CHEAT, or do things to hurt people on purpose.
With all of that being said, if God can move mountains and bring the right people in my life for my career, how can I convince God to maybe give me a "cookie" one with love once in awhile?