I don’t know what it is about this time of year that seems to get me down but it does. Maybe I’m vitamin D deficient right now, or PMS’ing at the moment. Or maybe I’m just starting to feel a little lonely.
I’m starting to feel like an endangered species! Ok…so that might be a little dramatic but 2 of my good girlfriends actually have boyfriends. And when I say actually let me clarify. These girls have been single for a long time. One of them is completely comfortable with her singleness and it never seemed to bother her. The other has had some interesting times with men and she wants to get married and have children. Now, don’t think for a second that I’m jealous of them. In fact, I’m very happy for them. I will say it makes for girls night plans a little harder but whatever. And now me and Melissa are the only 2 girls that I’m really good friends with that are single and not dating!
Like just now, I was on Facebook checking out some pages of my friends from high school. I started to notice that everyone I know is married, engaged or in a relationship with someone. I also noticed that I’m one of just a few without kids. That part doesn’t bother me so much but kids that were freshman when I was a senior are married now!!! What is the world coming to??? I think Melissa and I are going to be the last single women on earth!
I know I bring this topic up a lot and I’m beating a dead horse here but I can’t lie…I get a little lonely. And no matter how many times someone says “I know you’ll find someone great” it doesn’t make you feel any better. No matter how many times someone tells you “When you stop looking for it it’ll happen”; it doesn’t make you feel better. Let’s face it; everyone is looking for someone in some capacity. Someone told me to listen to the song by John Mayer ‘Good Love is on the Way’. I watched the video on YOUTUBE and he said at the beginning basically what I said, that everyone is looking for it. He also said let’s not focus on past loves, think of the future and put your faith forward. Sounds great. I just wish I didn’t get lonely. If I never felt lonely I would probably be just fine without anyone ever.
Alright, so…I just slapped myself and told myself to snap out of it!! The remedy for now will be…
1. Take more vitamin D
2. Tell myself I have bigger fish to fry right now.
3. Write myself love letters…ahh maybe not
4. Stay positive
5. Listen to that John Mayer song all the time
6. Find a gay man to love me!
7. And spend more time with my single girl Melissa…misery loves company.