I'm at a point right now where I feel like I'm in high school all over again. When I was in high school I was always without a boyfriend. My friends all had a guy but all I ever seemed to attract was the foreign exchange students and the pot smokers. So, needless to say in high school and college I never had a boyfriend. Truly, I never really had anyone interested in me longer than a couple months if I was interested in them as well. Especially, since I never put out....I was a good girl.
Flash forward at least 10 years later. I' m a single girl again, with mostly single friends. Most of the time I've lived here in Milwaukee I haven't dated anyone of much significance. I've had the random dates here and there that never went beyond the 1st or 2nd date. And I've dated someone for a few months. When my girlfriends and I go out I again usually attract every lame-o around. I must have a sign on my forehead that says "IF YOU SUCK...HIT ON ME!"
Where am I going with this? Well, as you know I'm as a single as it gets. Since my breakup, I haven't had any dates nor have I had anyone besides 50 year old men ask me on a date. As I tell my friend Ben..."It's as dry as the Sahara." It gets me down a little. Having the opposite sex give you attention is always nice but when all you ever attract is old men, men with rap sheets, and users, it bums you out a little.
All of my girlfriends at the moment have at least an iron in the fire if not a few. One of friends is dating a guy and has a few guys that she is keeping in mind. Another one has met a guy that seems to be absolutely smitten with her. Lastly my other girlfriend has randomly met 2 guys that she will be going on dates with. One a doctor and the other a med sales guy. All of the guys seem to great to far. THEN THERE'S ME!!! Seriously, the last guy that seemed into me we found out that he has been in jail!!!! DEAR GOD!!!!
My girlfriend Marissa told me the other day that I can't catch a break with guys. She said "Erin you seriously have the worst luck." This being single thing would be so much easier for me if I could like a guy. If I could just hook up with people. Problem is, even if I wanted to do that, again I attract D-bags! And I'm not going to waste a number on a D-bag...actually I think I've already done that and NO THANK YOU. Thank God I never see him around town.
Don't get me wrong, I am so happy that my friends are finding guys that seem to be worth dating. It does suck a little hearing about these guys fawn all over them and sending them sweet text messages. Considering the last guy I dated never sent me a txt like that it really got me bummed. I feel a little short changed.
Even though I'm bummed being the odd girl out I guess it's good that I'm not just dating to date. I never want to be with someone because I'm bored by myself. Or because I need attention that bad. I just hope that I will attract at least some good men one of these days.