I was in Chicago over the weekend and I found something quite refreshing...there were single young people everywhere. Now I'm sure there were people that weren't but it was great. All I know is that it made me feel like I wasn't alone.
I met up with a friend of mine from Texas who I hadn't seen in a few years. She's young, single, a working hard professional girl. She has been on a few dates here and there but nothing special. And you know what, she seems OK with it. I'm not sure if it's because she has a job that keeps her busy or the fact that she has a great set of friends that keep her busy. I just thought that it was awesome that she didn't seem to crack under the pressure of "I NEED A HUSBAND...I NEED BABIES!" Maybe she doesn't get that pressure since she's in such a big city.
Then I started thinking about it...'Are ladies always on a husband hunt?' 'Is it a Midwest thing?' 'why are we so uncomfortable being alone?'
I'm guilty of being uncomfortable alone. I'm trying to be comfortable by myself. I feel like it'll be a while before I date again so I need to be my own best friend for a while.
I know that get I get lonely. Even when I dated Sean. He lived 1000 miles away. He was my boyfriend but I still felt lonely at times. I wish that we lived in the same town but even if I did he was so busy with work traveling that if I did it wouldn't be much different. It might have been cheaper but maybe not.
Anyway, I also think of my best friend Desiree. She lives back home in Portland around a lot of our old friends...who are all married with multiple kids. Every time she meets up with them they always ask "So when are you getting married...when are you having kids?" Talk about pressure. Now she has a boyfriend and things are pretty serious so it looks like she'll walk down the aisle soon.
I just wonder sometimes is it bad that we're not all married by 30? Are we lepers? I know I feel like a leper sometimes now that I'm divorced. I'm not sure if that's a common feeling but I know I feel like that sometimes.
I just wonder if I'm the only one that feels the pressure...especially girls. Do we feel the pressure more and do we put it upon ourselves because we compare ourselves to our friends instead of doing things when they happen.