Tuesday, December 14, 2010


It's been about 4 years since I've had a boyfriend or a long term relationship. I've had "moments" in there but nothing sticks and sometimes it's ok if it doesn't.

This morning when I was working out with my trainer, I told her, "You know, It's been so long since I've been in a relationship that I'm not sure if I know how to be in one anymore."

I stood there doing my squats telling her about the weird things I miss abut being in a relationship, and the first thing I could say was, " I miss taking a shower with someone." I think she was surprised that was my first thought, but that's really one of my favourite things about being with someone.

I think the fact that there the two of you are in your most vulnerable, natural state and completly comfortable with eachother is what I miss the most. There you are naked as can be without any makeup on and they're helping you wash your back. It may sound silly to you but I love it.

Cuddling is one of the other things I miss about being in a relationship. Cuz let's face it, when you hook up with someone cuddling is usually NOT in the works. (not that I hook up a lot) I especially miss spooning. Granted, spooning can be a little hot and sweaty, but it's so nice to have that closeness of someone wrapping themselves around you.

One of my "love languages" is touch. I'm what you may call a petter! I like petting people, rubbing them. Whatever you want to call it. I guess that's how I show my affection. I found myself not long ago after having a few drinks, rubbing someone's back. I actually had to stop and say, "Why am I rubbing your back? Is this weird?" Fortunatley they didn't. Although, it probably was weird.

Another thing I miss is having someone on your side no matter what. I miss having someone to share my good and bad days with. I miss having that person to bounce stuff off of and they want to help no matter what it is.

I miss having someone that wants to make you happy. In the beginning, this person wants to impress you to make you happy. After time goes on and your appreciation for each oher grows, then they just want you to be happy everyday.

1 comment:

steven brandner said...

i know how you feel erin and i know you are gonna find someone and will make them the happiest person in the world. i believe there is osmeone there for everyone you just got to find them.