MY 2011 NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS

I can't remember all my New Years Resolutions from last year however, I do remember a couple of them. One of them being to get in better shape. The other was to get my deviated septum fixed. (I know that's weird but I was tired of looking at it) Both of those happened this past year.

As I move forward into 2011, I'd like to see my life move forward as well. Sometimes I look at my life and feel like I haven't moved forward much. Granted my scenery has changed a bit with my moving around for my job. I've traveled a bit, going to Europe by myself several times in the last few years. My job has changed, I've learned things and have met interesting people. I still feel like I need more.

So what can I do to make 2011 better than 2010?

1. Stay Fit!

Lately I've been running and working out sometimes 2 times a day. I'd like to keep that going. It makes me feel better and I want to look better. I'd like to see if I could do mini-triathlon or be so fit that I look like a fitness magazine cover!! I guess that means I need to cut back on the cocktails and drink more protein shakes!

2. Teach myself how to play piano.

Being in the radio business and meeting a lot musicians, I've discovered that I want to know how to play an instrument. My mom plays guitar and my brother knows to play bass, but for some reason I never had much of a desire as a kid. I was more of a sports kid. Now that I'm older, I'd like to have a hobby and possible new talent.

I actually have already started on this resolution. I asked my parents for Christmas to get me a keyboard. So, I went to Toys R' Us and bought the Yamaha YPT-320! Granted it's only 61 keys, but I figure it's a good start. (And don't make fun because I went to Toys R' Us to get it.) So now I just need to set it up and start teaching myself.

3. Continue to better myself

This is sort of vague, but ever since my divorce I've been on a mission to better myself and get it together. Whether that's it's physical or mental I want to be a better version of me. I want to discover myself and know ME!

4. Get more organized

This is always been a problem for me. I would consider myself semi-messy and I'd like to change that in 2011. I have a tendency to take my shoes off and just leave them wherever. I'm like a kid with their toys. Heck, you should see me desk at work. Papers, makeup, and randomness everywhere.

I know there are some other things I need to work on but some of them I know will be to hard to break. For instance my potty mouth. I like telling dirty jokes and I don't think that'll ever stop. I like to not worry as much, but I'm not sure how I'm going to stop that. I guess we can just try to do our best each day and get it a try.

WHAT I MISS ABOUT BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP

It's been about 4 years since I've had a boyfriend or a long term relationship. I've had "moments" in there but nothing sticks and sometimes it's ok if it doesn't.

This morning when I was working out with my trainer, I told her, "You know, It's been so long since I've been in a relationship that I'm not sure if I know how to be in one anymore."

I stood there doing my squats telling her about the weird things I miss abut being in a relationship, and the first thing I could say was, " I miss taking a shower with someone." I think she was surprised that was my first thought, but that's really one of my favourite things about being with someone.

I think the fact that there the two of you are in your most vulnerable, natural state and completly comfortable with eachother is what I miss the most. There you are naked as can be without any makeup on and they're helping you wash your back. It may sound silly to you but I love it.

Cuddling is one of the other things I miss about being in a relationship. Cuz let's face it, when you hook up with someone cuddling is usually NOT in the works. (not that I hook up a lot) I especially miss spooning. Granted, spooning can be a little hot and sweaty, but it's so nice to have that closeness of someone wrapping themselves around you.

One of my "love languages" is touch. I'm what you may call a petter! I like petting people, rubbing them. Whatever you want to call it. I guess that's how I show my affection. I found myself not long ago after having a few drinks, rubbing someone's back. I actually had to stop and say, "Why am I rubbing your back? Is this weird?" Fortunatley they didn't. Although, it probably was weird.

Another thing I miss is having someone on your side no matter what. I miss having someone to share my good and bad days with. I miss having that person to bounce stuff off of and they want to help no matter what it is.

I miss having someone that wants to make you happy. In the beginning, this person wants to impress you to make you happy. After time goes on and your appreciation for each oher grows, then they just want you to be happy everyday.

TAKING APPLICATIONS FOR NEW GIRLFRIENDS

Since moving to Houston over a year ago I've made a few friends. Not as many as I'd like but a few. Out of those friends, I feel like I haven't met my total equal. Now don't get me wrong. I've met some great people, but it seems I don't like I don't have my group of go to girls.

I've always said that finding good girlfriends is like finding a boyfriend. Think about finding a good mate. It's not easy to find someone who's on the same page as you. Someone that you have a connection with and enjoy their company. So, when it comes to finding girlfriends it can be equally as tough.

It seems like my girlfriends in Milwaukee were there when you needed them. Not matter what it was. If you were having a problem, they were there. If you wanted to grab some food last minute, they were there. If you needed a work out partner, they were there.

All of them were so different and yet we all were such a great group together!

Like my best friend "Marissa," she and I had the same schedule. So when we became friends we were inseparable. We'd workout together, take naps at the same time, and we would even go grocery shopping together. We have the same sense of humour, we act very similar, have similar personalities, and we have each others back.

Or my friend "Rachel," whom I met because she called up the radio station. It may sound weird, but she was listening to my morning show the day I talked about how my boyfriend broke up with me. I was balling on the air like a girl just had her heart ripped out by the guy she loved and he threw it on the ground and did the Mexican hat dance on it.

I think she must've felt a little sorry for me. There I am in a new town, with a new job and the one semi stable part of my life, my boyfriend, decided to break up with me over the phone.

At first I was apprehensive to meet her for lunch, but then I thought, "Oh what the hell!" We ended up having lunch for something like 3-4 hours. The great part about her is that she's very open and in a way has a motherly understanding. She's the girl likes taking care of people.

There are so many other great girlfriends that I had there. My landlord I guess you could say was my first friend. My friend "Clarissa" who was a part of the group.

We had such a great group of girls. A group that I could rely on and vice versa. I can't truly say that here. Not that these girls aren't great people but we maybe in different phases.

I feel like girls flake on me a lot. We make plans and they don't get back to you until 6 hours later. Lately I've been spending my weekends at home because my girls aren't as reliable or on the same page as I am.

I would like to have one single friend that I can have as my go to girl ad not worry about her bailing on me everytime I turn around.