In my last several posts I've rather emotional. Emotional over some transitions in my life, things that bother me, and things that have recently happened. I want to clarify my range of emotions.
In my last blog about my dog I talked about a subject that I have been dealing with for months. My last trip to Portland would've been the last time for me to see my dog that's dying of bone cancer. I was so looking forward to it and when I was told I couldn't, I couldn't stop crying. I still don't see what the big deal is/was. I'm over the anger but still dissappointed. Really, what's done is done and that's all I have on that.
I wrote a blog about being doomed in the love department. I know that was a rather depressing blog. Lately, I've been trying to think more positive and that was a blog that I wrote prior to me reading Joel Osteen's book 'Your Best Life Now'. I've been repeatedly telling myself that there is a plan for me, there is someone for me, and I'm not here by accident. I sometimes would get so frustrated becuase it seemed everyone around me had someone and I felt left out. I just have to tell myself that everyone has their own timetable and God will find me a great guy someday.
As you have read, I get rather fired up and over my ex sometimes...or a lot. I have to say that this is the one area of my life where it's still negative. So, I'm slowly trying to move past my feelings of anger and eliminate the source of it. After this past weekend and the dog sitiuation...I honestly have no reason to talk to him. It's unforunate...but what's the point? Everytime I hoped it would be better but it didn't happen. So I just need to get rid of what hurts and take control back.
I have a lot to be thankful for and a lot to look forward to. I want to share some of it with you but not just yet. Just know that I work everday on being more positive but that doesn't mean I won't have things bother me...I'm just learning to deal with the differently.
Here's to eliminating the negative people, things, and thoughts in my life.
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5 comments:
Cheers, Sista!
xo
You're single because you're jaded. You probably wouldn't even consider dating someone unless deep down you thought your ex might be jelous. Stop blaming all men for your own poor choices.
Punce,
Maybe you're name should be Putz! Because what you wrote is the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard.
I would date someone...I just haven't found anyone that I connect with. Noone that seems to be at the same place as me.
My choice is to find the right person and if that means me being single for a long time in stead of settling with just anyone then so be it.
My Ex has NOTHING to do with that. Never has...never will.
Your comment is ignorant!
Yeah you're right. I'm way off. But having a blog, you probably expect things like that.
I do expect things like that...I should more though. Especially from people that may not know me and they form opinions from the tiny amount of info I provide on my blog.
Or they know someone I wrote about and they get their twisted side of the story...
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