MY TRIP BACK HOME

I made a trip back home to the Northwest a couple of weeks ago. I spent a little time with my parents, and my best friend Desiree. I got to go skiing and spent a day in Seattle with my parents. I hadn't been back in a year and it was to get a taste of home again.

I thought I'd share some pics from the trip

Here's Desiree and I skiing at Mt. Hood

It was a crazy weather day for skiing. Snow was pelting us in our face the entire day. I think my face lost a layer skin.

If you ever think you're ready for kids..take a trip to Chucky Cheese. It's the best form of birth control ever.

Desiree and I a long with her boyfriend Nick grabbing some dinner at my favourite restaurant in Portland...Oba! Everytime I'm in town I eat there. I always get the Oba Ceaser and the ahi tuna dish.

On Sunday I took a drive to Seattle with my parents for the day...I hadn't been to Seattle in couple of years so I thought I needed to take it in.

In front of the Pike Street Market In front of the Original Starbucks!!!!

The beautiful Puget Sound

WHY DO I LET PEOPLE & THINGS GET UNDER MY SKIN?

I'm a person that sometimes lets the little things bother me when I should just let them go. Sometimes that is easier said than done. When people say things that are hurtful I dwell on them. When people don't like me I have a hard time with it. When a situation gets out of hand, I don't feel good until things are smoothed over.

For instance, there's a particular person I went on a few dates with. When I see him around town it's OK. But then something he says gets under my skin...almost like he tries to piss me off. He always ahs to get the last word...very mature BTW! I mean this guy will send me random text messages telling me that I'm bitchy and write me messages under different names in response to my blog and say things like "No wonder you can't get a guy." Now some people may just blow it off and consider the source. I let it bother me.

Now granted, I don't dwell on it too much but it still is hurtful. Funny thing is, I think he thinks it's funny! Not sure how being emotional abusive is funny! I think he's a guy that likes to tear you down and then look like a hero when he tries to build you up again. Like I'm not going to notice the part of him that's an A$$-h*L#!!

Another instance, when I call someone that I really want to talk to and they don't all me back. I wonder stupid things like "Oh why aren't they calling me back?' "Do they not like me?" Most people would probably think..."Oh they must be busy." And that's another thing, If someone doesn't like me that bothers me. Most people would probably chalk it up to a matter of it being their loss. But I take it personally.

Why can't I learn to let things just roll off? Why do I take things so personally and to heart when I could have a lot less stress if I didn't sweat the small stuff? So how do you learn to just lets things not affect you?

IS THIS ABOUT ME?? I DON'T THINK SO...BUT YOU TELL ME!

I had our producer Patrick tell me that he read this and thought it was me. Then I had my landlord tell me the same thing. I read the email...and I thought..."it could be me or about 20 other girls. " So read a little and tell me what you think. The only part that had me thinking it might be me was at the end when they talk about hearing the girl gripe about her dating life on her radio show. God knows I do that.....The article is called "How to date a local celebrity"...which I do NOT consider myself to be...so see what you think.

Dear Anjl and Marilynn,
I am interested in this lovely woman who happens to be well known in the community/ "Jill" has had bad experiences in her past relationships. I would like to get closer to "Jill," but do not want to become overbearing and push her away, or appear to be shallow like her previous suitors. Being so popular, "Jill" is often quite busy at many events. How can I make a meaningful impression and show I am sincere in my intentions and get into her busy life?

Dear KFed,
Marilynn Mee: You may be surprised to know that we have some experience in this area. Enough experience that this is creeping me out just a tiny bit ...

Anjl Rodee: Oh, come on now. Local celebs need lovin, too.

Boy, this is tougher to answer than I thought it was going to be. Then again, I've never been in your situation, KFed. I do hope we come up with a good answer for you, though, because Johnny Depp will be in town soon ...

MM: When it comes to being interested and getting to know somebody and asking them out, it really doesn't matter if somebody is well known or if it's the girl that works at the dry cleaner.

AR: Absolutely. If you feel the need to call attention in any way to her notoriety, then maybe you need to evaluate your motives in asking her out. It does sound like it may be a factor in your interest in Jill.

MM: And anybody that is well known, whether by media, music or politics, will tell you that it is a concern: are they interested in me, or because I do what I do.

AR: It can be hard to separate the two -- when you are in the public eye, what you do does tend to define you. And you just aren't going to know who's interested in you for the right reasons until you get to know someone.

AR: It's just not going to work any differently with "Jill" than with any other girl. She's going to like what she sees, or she isn't. Her bad luck with men in the past is not something that you'll be able to hurdle with a great pick up line.

MM: By the way, I wonder how he knows about her relationship past?

AR: Maybe he actually knows her, hangs on the periphery of her peer group. Or, maybe he listens to her gripe about it during her radio show. Be your charming self. Be genuine. If she turns you down, I hear Meg Ryan is single now...

So, what do we think...I'm not sure. Like I said it could be another radio girl. Although, I'm not sure how many talk about their love life on the air.

You can read the entire thing online at onmilwaukee.com I posted the link below.

http://www.onmilwaukee.com/buzz/articles/localcelebdate.html

MILWAUKEE'S REAL LIFE SEX AND THE CITY!!!

So I hang with a group of girls that are all single. There's a total of 4 of us. We all have careers, have good heads on our shoulders...and did I mention we're all single? Seriously, one of us maybe more sensitive than the rest. One of us maybe more quite and shy. One of us maybe more cynical. We're all different, yet, we're all very good and close friends. We pretty much do everything together.

So, why so I call my group of friends Milwaukee's "REAL LIFE" Sex in the City? Well I don't call us that because we're getting a lot of sex. In fact, like I said in my last blog..."We're all dry as the Sahara right now." We have dates here and there but nothing ever serious and nothing ever really goes anywhere. And that's OK...for the most part. I think there have been times where some of us might have been disappointed but we recovered quickly.

Think of the girls on the show. I'm going to describe of of the girls in our group. "Chloe" is a little reserved. She's smart. She has a great job where she makes great money. She is sweet and sensitive. I would compare her to Charlotte on the show...except "Chloe" isn't in a hurry to get married with kids. "Rachel" is the adviser in the group. She knows everyone in town. She's always looking out for us girls. She's super positive. Doesn't let things get her down. She has an essence of Samantha and at the same time has a little bit of Charlotte in her. Then there's "Melinda". "Melinda" has a great job that she's very good at. She's spunky and has a good sense of humour. And far as dating, she is the quickest to get over a guy. Gawd...I wish I could do that. I would say that "Melinda" is a combo of Samantha with a little Miranda and maybe even a little Carrie too. Now, as for me I think I'm a combo of all of them. I think I'm sensitive like Charlotte. I'm cynical and career minded like Miranda. Feisty like Samantha. And searching for answers like Carrie.

All of us girls like to go out to dinner and drink Martinis. We like to go to events around town and attend parties. We like to get dressed up and check out guys. (when there are some) And most importantly, we all talk about men, and relationships. We compare our experiences daily. Over dinner and drinks, we compare over the phone and at the gym. We talk through tears and through laughter.

So, that's why I call my group of girls "Milwaukee's real life Sex and the City". We are on the journey of love and life and I'm glad that I've got a great group to go through it with.

IT'S O.K. TO BE SINGLE...RIGHT?

I'm not going to lie but, I'm a girl that likes being in a relationship. Now, I don't want to be in one just for the sake of being in a relationship. That would be stupid...and I would be settling. And I will be damned if I settle in any sense of the word. I want to be in a good relationship.

I mean, I know plenty of girls and guys for that matter, that before they are even out of the relationship they're in, they already have one waiting in the wings. Not my style.

I have been comparing myself to others lately. Which is not good and I shouldn't do it but, whatever. So, I was thinking about some of my exes or people I've dated here and there and I realized all of them are dating someone or at the least have the "steady" girls that they keep around just in case they need something...if you know what I mean. I had this thought like "Is there something wrong with me that I can't find anyone?" Now, I could've thought of it this way..."Maybe they have lower standards than me...maybe they're settling...maybe they're not really happy." But, I of course think..."why can't I find anyone?" or "Why can't I just keep someone around?". Yep, can't do that...again not my style.


I actually had dinner with one of my guy friends the other night. We were talking about dating and other relationship stuff. He asked me what it was that I wanted. I told him eventually I'd like to find somebody. He asked me why I wanted to be in a relationship so bad...I told him "It's like the Wii at Christmas time...you don't want to the only kid on the block without one." He laughed, and I know my answer seems silly, but everytime I turn around, everyone has got someone except for me ...or so it seems. I know that with the great set of girlfriends that I have we're all completely single. Sometimes we have dates but more often than not..we don't. As I like to say "We are as dry as the Sahara." And no...I'm not having a pity party..I swear.

I guess it really hit me when I came the realization that my exes had somebody serious or not so serious. I thought "how did they find someone so quickly?" I know that I'm picky and wondered are they being picky or they just filling with a "good for now girl?" Now don't get me wrong, I would so much rather be single and playing the field(even though I'm not) than be in a relationship that I'm in just to fill time. LAME! If I need something that bad...there's always the store "A Woman's Touch" that I can check out. Maybe this experience of having no dates and nobody in my life is just different for and I'm not used to it. Like I've said before, most of my 20's were in relationships. I really do think it's a good idea to be by myself for awhile. It's not always easy but I think it's good for me.

Well I will close with this. My exes may have somebody. They maybe happy and they may not be. I know that even though I am the girl that likes to have someone, I won't let it get me down that I don't have someone. There's one thing I know. That along the path of dating you might make some wrong turns but, I know I won't stay down the bad road very long. Here's one more nugget, I heard someone say this "I'll start dating someone when they fascinate me as much as my job." Let's take that one step further... "I'll start dating when someone fascinates me more than my job, and for that matter fascinates me more than my dog."